Life is busy right now. It's good, it is, just busy. There aren't enough hours in the day for me to get done what I need to do.
I work my 5 days of the week and then plan out the two off strategically, or book off for appointments and such.
There are so many people I want to see while home and certain people that I keep pushing off and I feel terrible about but like this week, my best friend is leaving for Peru on tuesday so I had to see her before then. My best guy friend since birth will be home for 2 days and I need to see him, I haven't been in my own bed since Thursday and I picked up some insane sickness on Wednesday that I still haven't been able to shake.

It's just all too much for me right now, I'm struggling to find the pause button or something to slow life down. I'm tired, I'm exhausted, I'm run down. I need rest.

rest.

where are you?

Beautiful things

This song is what I need right now. I first stumbled upon the Michael Gungor band for their song "White Man" which is just a great tongue in cheek song, the things that need to be said. I believe the band may have changed to just Gungor now (?) But I listen to their myspace player often and should invest in a cd when I can. The song that has been stuck in my head, the song on my heart, I just read the lyrics too and they are wonderful. Let me share

Beautiful Things

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll even find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

I don't want to complain about this heat, because I love the warmth and summer and we've been waiting for it SO long, even though this week has just been ridiculous especially having to work outside all day.

So, I'll talk about something else.

I got my hair all cut off. My mother and I both did actually, it was a nice relief in this heat, though I must say I took a mild panic attack in the chair because my mother used to be a hairdresser, and has only allowed two other people to cut my hair ever in my life.

Also, I had a poor experience with short hair in high school. So that fear plus a new person touching my hair with scissors was enough to make me dizzy to say the least.

But I do love it, its wildly different, a whole heck of a lot shorter, I look more mature (or so I'm told) and it's way easier in this heat.

I can't say what I really want to say, how I'm really feeling about something at the moment for fear of that person reading this. But I've come to realize once this happens, things are going to change wildly for us. I hope that person is ready for what is coming.